Situation: You’re either at the bar or drinking every night. You’re looking for healing in the bottom of a bottle. This feels like a very heavy burden. Either a great heartbreak or the death of a loved one. This drinking is making you angry, intolerable, and unproductive. Your friends and family are worried about you, but you keep shrugging them off telling them they are overexaggerating. It seems that you aren’t seeing the problem with your drinking. But it is affecting everyone around you. You’re rationalizing with yourself saying things like” It’s just a bottle of wine” or, “I don’t even get drunk like that” or ” You don’t understand what this pain is like. I’m just trying to cope”, and ” I can stop when I want.”
Current Feelings: You know this burden needs to be released but you’re torn. While it provides a temporary escape from your pain, once you actually get drunk, all the voices pop up in your head about your unhealthy relationship with alcohol. You’re feeling hopeless and like there is no way out of your situation. You feel like damned if you do, damned if you don’t. If you stop drinking you have to feel and if you have to feel, you need a drink. You definitely are tired of other people’s judgement of you and I’m even getting a bit of suicidal thoughts and depression.
Future: Your luck is not going to get any better as long as you wall yourself off from others. Things are going to go from bad to worse. You may not think you want anyone around you right now, and that you’re all alone but, you haven’t seen alone like you’re about to see it if you keep abusing the people who are trying to help you. Blocking the love and support from your family and friends is only adding to your distress. If you continue down this road of self destructive behaviors, you are going to accidentally cause more harm to yourself than you realize. An intervention is coming your way.
Advice: Please let your loved ones help you. There is great love, happiness, and support waiting for you on the other side of recovery. But first, you’ve got to get some help babe. I’m so sorry that you are feeling so down, so broken, so alone. While I don’t know the specifics of your situation, I do know that God loves us all and wants all of us to be happy. This situation, person, or opportunity, was not taken away from you as punishment. Once you get clear headed you will see the purpose for this or at the least come to understand why it happened and how you can use this experience to help someone else. You are strong enough to do this. Your spirit team and God are walking alongside you. All you need to do is ask for the help and it will be given to you in abundance.
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